here i m in my office at my desk using my computer to update my blog...hai~~life is sometimes so meaningless..but wat to do,hve to go thru 1 mah...many events hve been happening recently tt really set me thinking...y m i here?y is my life so different from the life tt i yearn to hve..y can't my parents b more understanding?all this while i hve been listening to them,y can't they listen to me for a change?i c other parents encouraging their child to do their best while my mum wants me to b the best..i was caned for juz failing my class test in pri4,i will 4eva remember this day.i really did my best n this is all i get,cane marks ard my legs to b put on display when i went back t sch the next day..she always toks on the phone n nv fails to tok abt my bad things but always seem to forget all the good things i hve done for her..i feel more like a gladiator den a son to her..scolding n beating me when i dun meet her demands..i m tired,very tired of all these crap..i feel myself changing..i sincerely hope my parents change coz i really can't bring myself to hate them...i want out.i wanna get thru with everything n move out of this place which i no longer treat as home..too bad i m thinking like this,maybe bcoz i m the middle child..if they r unhappy or watsoever with me,y can't they come tok straight in my face??i m no damn 3 year old kid anymore,i m a 20 year old teenage reaching adulthood n i dun expect to b kept inside a cage..i need my freedom...if this is wat n how they wan things to b done,fine with me.but dun blame me when the day comes when i hve to release all the anger i hve within me..i m stubborn but they r more stubborn den me...when i look back to these days next time,i will still thk them,for making me the person i m..i dun regret becoming the person i m bcoz it has helped me find the most wonderful girlfriend i will ever hve.she has been my confidant n by my side during my saddest hours...she's the only 1 tt can really make me happy n i will b more den happy to spend the rest of my life with her..thk u so much darling~~for nw,i will juz do things the way i deem fit..i m juz a ticking timebomb nw...